First Loves Don’t Last Forever Essay Example
Every relationship starts so sweet. The first love, the one we think we will stay with forever. Not knowing that the end of my relationship was so near and my biggest life lesson was about to happen. We were together for almost two years; although it was very toxic, I wouldn’t let him go. He was my first connection, my first love, hence why I couldn’t imagine myself without him. The signs of him losing interest where there, however love can be blinding. Always gave him the benefit of the doubt, and the hardest part was that I was the one who had to walk away. I had to learn my worth and let go of my breakup to become the person I wanted to be.
After we broke up my life went downhill. I was in a dark hole and I couldn’t get out of it. My self-esteem dropped to the floor. I thought no one else would want to be with me because he had convinced me that I was worth nothing. Although I was constantly being mistreated I still wanted to be by his side, my depression wouldn't let me sleep or eat. I had given up on everything and everyone. My world revolved around him and when he was absent it was like a bullet to my heart. After a few months passed my family and friends became concerned about me and tried to help but nothing worked. Social media showed me when he was with another girl, and once again my heart felt broken however, I knew I had suffered enough.
I invested my time on my own thing. Started to do things that made me joyous and focused on my happiness instead of his. I had never focused on myself before. Never thought of what I wanted or how I felt, it was always him before me. For the first time I was able to disconnect and enjoy life. My life was coming back now that I was focusing on myself. That’s when I was introduced to dance and the gym, that soon became my passion. After the sadness started to faded away my life became brighter. I was motivated, excited, and enthusiastic about my next goal. I learned my self worth and became my own best friend knowing that I didn't need a guy to make me happy. I became the person who I am to this day; emotionally stronger and grew some thicker skin. After all the pain and suffering I went through this was one of the most important lessons in my life. I knew that if I wanted something I could get it myself if I just put myself to it and that the only person I need is myself.